This is not about overeating tonight, because today in my sorrow, I have not overeaten.  I actually have barely been hungry.  A deep depression has set in after someone I dearly and wholeheartedly trusted betrayed that trust and hurt me in ways unspeakable.  I don’t have the words to express this pain, because it is one I so rarely encounter- like an elusive beast roaming the woods. My mind has been unable to settle and I feel a tightening in my chest that is longing to be relieved by tears, a good scream, anything.  But food is not on the agenda…not even the loves of my life are able to remove this cloud and I don’t know what to do.  I pray and hope that I can find my way back home, but the road is so lonely right now, and so vague.  I will hope, I will try to dream, and I will try to find my way out through faith.  Without it, what more do I have to hold on to?

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